As I’ve been lying in bed the past few days, sometimes sleeping, sometimes just not wanting to move because of the pain, I have been reflecting on this journey we are on.

At first, especially when I was lying in recovery in an anesethic induced stupor, but still able to feel the very real pain, I thought, Is this really worth it?? Why does it take so much pain just to get pregnant and fullfill the dream of having children??

Now that I have recovered, I am glad I did the surgery, but I don’t think I would go through it again. And I hope that our doctor never suggests that it’s necessary.

So, if someone were to ask me, “Are you willing to do anything to have a child?” I realize that I would have to say “NO”. I still hope that this step we’ve taken is the answer, and that I will not need to have any more invasive procedures to get pregnant. Next week we’ll see the Doctor again, and he’ll give us his plan for treatment (just meds, please – that’s invasive enough!!!). While we HOPE and pray that this treatment will work and we’ll get our little miracle, there are no guarantees. There’s just Hope.

It’s hard for me to talk about everything I think and feel, cause there’s so much going on. So, I thought I’d add a link to a page for Family & Friends at ACCESS – Australia’s National Infertility Network. This is just a quick summary about Infertility and includes some information about IF myths and the emotional impact of IF on couples travelling this road. The font on the page is quite small, but please read it when you have time. Thanks.