Outside my window… i’m looking over the very cold swimming pool. it’s so inviting, yet so deceptive. i’ll turn into a popsicle if i even put one toe in the water.
I’m thinking… about God’s love. He gives it so freely and I find it so hard to accept it. I don’t really believe the things that he says to me and about me. I know it’s a cliche, but today he gave me a picture of how I interact with my kids, how I love them, protect them, how I am just so proud of them, and the concern I have for their safety and well being. I am always bragging on them, telling little stories about them, boring other parents with their achievements. And He was saying, “That’s what I’m like with you. I’m always right there, ready to catch you even when you want to do it all on your own. I see all your accomplishments, and I clap and cheer; and I see when you slip and fall, and I’m there to pick you up and kiss it better.” But I’m like Samantha. She doesn’t want my help. She’s independent and strong willed. And when she’s hurt, many times she won’t let me comfort her. So, that’s what I’m thinking about and chewing on today.
In the kitchen… it’s a week of ready made meals and the microwave is getting a workout. No more creations for a while.
I’m thankful for… babysitters.
I’m Reading… still ‘Into Abba’s Arms’. It’s the kind of book you have to chew on and digest slowly. Stop and savour the flavour before moving on to the next bite.
I’m hearing… delighted shrieks of laughter of kids running and playing. Rice boiling over in the pot (no fancy schmancy rice cooker in this place). Static from the baby monitor.
Around the house… We have settled into the ‘lived in’ look. I no longer feel guilty about it. I don’t have the time to keep it all spick and span, and when I do have a little time, I either use it to sleep or enjoy my kids. I have my priorities firmly in place.
One of my favourite things… I love listening to Samantha put herself to sleep.
Plans for the weekend… We’re off to Lodi to visit with some old friends.
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