Today I’m chuckling again. Actually, I’m laughing out loud. God what are you trying to teach me?

Last night was a rough night. Bedtime Battles, followed by Insomnia, followed by Darling Son crying without end (well an hour) and refusing to be soothed. Then he was awake at 6:30am and I started the day Oh So Happy that I have a maid 3 days a week. I was expecting her at 9am. She didn’t show. I left for my morning appointment around 10am, leaving the kids with Sean. Still expectantly waiting for P’ Wan to arrive.

I got a text: P’ Wan’s son broke his leg. In emergency all night. No money on phone. Motorbike broken.

I laughed. Out Loud. It’s heartless, I know. But it proves that I am more Thai than I look.

Okay God, what are you trying to teach me?

I had plans for my day. Big plans. So did Sean. I was gonna take a nap. Sean was gonna write his book. While P’ Wan entertained the kids.

Not anymore.

I laughed again. Hmm, I wonder if I should visit P’ Wan at the hospital?

Okay God. My plans are shot. I have to go home, and take care of the kids. What a concept!!

When I got home, I sat down to read through the Warrior Prayers book again.  A sea of chaos swirls around me as I try to come to terms with giving up MY agenda for today.

Lord, I know I’m a weak vessel. I’ve got lots of cracks. Right now my Selfishness Crack is pretty big and is compromising the integrity of the whole pot. So, What are you trying to teach me? 

To delight in my kids and their antics. To sacrifice lovingly for them. To change the way I see the circumstances. To be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Oh, yeah. Romans 12:1-2. Again! Along with Matthew 6:27-34 – Don’t worry. God has it all in control. He’s not surprised by today. So, I need to rest in Him. My Rock and My Strong Tower.

From the Leader’s Guide:

The One who made you and loves you is waiting to give help and comfort and peace all along the way. No, He doesn’t take away the pain and the frustration, but He gives us a way to deal with it. When we begin to think about ourselves and our children in His scheme of things, we begin to think big. We see ourselves and our children in His plan and our “today” perspective changes.

What’s important for me to remember?

Motherhood has many demands, but I can’t do everything. In fact, I don’t need to. There’s One who knows better than I do and He’s waiting to catch me and my son when we stumble. He gives me grace to do all I can each day … then His grace provides for all I didn’t get to, as well. It’s hard to believe anyone loves my son more than I do. But He does.
Knowing that, I can “Glory in His holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice. Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.” (Psalm 105:3,4)
And I can help myself to peace–from above.

“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee; because he trusteth in Thee.” Isaiah 26:3 (ASV)

How do I live with ‘peace that passes understanding’? Rejoice! In every circumstance! And think about the good, lovely, true, praiseworthy, admirable and beautiful things that surround me. (Philippians 4:4-8) That would be God.

“You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.” Isaiah 26:3 (Amplified)